Feeling FULLfillment

Being in union with self creates a divine connection with what resonates with your authentic self. Some opportunities of union can be mislead by karmic cycles from the past that may through you off track, but learning how to use discernment will allow you to know what’s truly needed to feel fulfillment. In the past, I would have spent all my moneys on all the crystals, and manifestation candles in order to feel like I was doing something magical. The real magic is within your vision and bringing it to life.

“Remember who you are. Don’t compromise for anyone, for any reason. You are a child of the Almighty God. Live that truth.”

– Lysa Terkeurst

I recently decided to take my focus away from my business after 6 years of daily commitment and it has been the longest and dreadful processes I’ve experienced. Spirit has been pushing me to let go of the things that no longer serve me because I tend to carry the burden of wanting to be present and available for everyone but the things I needed from these people were too much for them to do. I wanted genuine, loyal, and evolved women to help my business elevate. In order for your small business to grow, you need others to support you on and offline especially in today’s society. My business has been my pride and joy and I’m so thankful for the connections I’ve made over the years.

As much as I’d love to start over and possibly rebrand I realized that being a hairstylist isn’t my calling and I no longer want to fake the funk to keep up. I want to spend more time in love, in gratitude and in my purpose. My purpose is to heal and nurture those who are willing to help themselves. I use to be a victim of suffering but I now know once it feels like pain, looks like pain, sounds like pain then you can count me out. Listening to my clients speak about traumatic situations use to make me feel like I needed to heal them, instead of me solely focusing on doing my job.

I use to sit around and wait for people to reciprocate the love and genuine energy that I put out because I knew they needed to be heard. I’m a visual thinker so if I’m listening to you, I’m visualizing ways for you to create a better narrative but it became very one sided because I wasn’t able to feel a genuine connection outside of the workspace. For months my business went through a drought where I had no customers and some of my customers that were still following me were going elsewhere to be serviced. During the pandemic, supporting black businesses became trendy while my business slowly deteriorated due to the rise of new stylist and people were simply doing their own hair to save money. But then it became a conversation about how much people were charging for styles that can take up to 10 hours to complete. Make it make sense!

As black people we limit ourselves so much that when we see others trying to progress so that they can create more opportunities for themselves, we’re quickly brought down by our own people. Kanye was right, slavery is a choice and I chose to not limit myself due to what others think I’m deserving of. I’m over waiting on people to support me because living a life that is solely attached to if someone chooses to put money in my hands is very draining. I learned that you cannot attach your true emotions to your business because it cannot coexists. Being so present in spaces where you’re not appreciated feels like failure and I never want to feel like I let myself down because I’m so proud of myself.

I learned to love my life without feeling like money is the only way to feel fulfillment. Fulfillment comes from love and a knowing that what you’re doing is only apart of your evolution. There’s no need to beat yourself up because you feel as if your success story isn’t attached to going viral or being a billionaire because true wealth comes from fulfillment within. There’s so much love and admiration for what I’ve created over the years but I’m ready for this new chapter to explore, create and connect to other creatives like myself.

I’m opening my heart to the life that I’m deserving of without carrying the weight of the past. Making room for new opportunities has given me a peace of mind and I’m learning how to trust the process and be fully present during this time to live to laugh and to love.

Affirmations to BO$$ up :

I am deserving of the love and respect I require.

I am WHOLE in who I am, in my natural essence.

I’ve made a conscious choice to prioritize the love I have in my life.

I am unavailable to half ass connections.

I utilize my gifts to acknowledge the bullshit upfront and exiting stage left when things feel off.

I am living in the present because I no longer want to live based on my past experiences.

I release those who cloud my judgement of love.

I realease those who vibrate low and do not add any value to my life.

I am rare and unique in my being and that will not be received by many and that is okay.

Rejection Is protection from the divine, to receive this you must SURRENDER.