It’s been quite a revolutionary journey discovering a new version of self after the shadow work phase. After releasing those who no longer believe in the vision along with my past self, I’ve had more time to focus on the tools that were provided for me in this chapter. Everyone has a purpose and I know I was not fulfilling my purpose in the past, hence why I was so unstable. God has renewed my sacred contract which grants me the ability to fulfill a purpose that allows me to appreciate life more, acknowledge and utilize my power, and to allow my spirit to speak for itself in times of adversities.
In the past, there were times of doubt, dispute and disappointment but God has turned that into big, bountiful, blessings. It took me fully giving up on myself to get to a place where I realized that everything I was holding on to was apart of my past life. I wanted to feed my ego so bad that I held on to things that no longer served a purpose in the next chapter so it took alittle longer than I anticipated, but once I came off my high horse it all made sense. When you ask God to release you from your own misery, he will take you on a journey of isolation from everything you once known. I subconsciously chanted that for the past few months because I was tired of my own bullshit.
As humans we lie to ourselves so that we’re able to live life without guilt but with accountability the guilt is the motivation needed to change our behaviors. The guilt is tied to our sense of accountability to be present in our repetitive situations. I was walking around guilty of being a victim to my past, wanting my old life was a bad habit that I genuinely struggled to release. Then it dawned on me how much I began to age with all the stress I was putting onto my body and I said fuck no. This is not the way to live, it’s time to genuinely BE happy.
Recently I discovered my human design out of curiosity because I’m always eager to learn why I was programmed to be emotionally attached to people, places, or things that didn’t allow me to connect with my higher self. I was pleased by the results provided in my chart because it all made so much sense as to why I’m often conflicted.
- TYPE: MANIFESTING GENERATOR
THE MULTI-HYPHENATE – MULTI-PASSIONATE PEOPLE WHO ARE HERE TO DO AND ACCOMPLISH MANY DIVERSE THINGS
- STRATEGY: RESPONDING
- AUTHORITY (THE WAY YOU MAKE DECISIONS):EMOTIONAL – SOLAR PLEXUS
- BASED ON HOW SOMETHING MAKES YOU FEEL
- DEFINITION: SPLIT DEFINITION
- THERE ARE TWO DISTINCT DIFFERENT VOICES INSIDE YOUR SYSTEM
- PROFILE: 5/1: THE CHALLENGE SOLVER kik
- INCARNATION CROSS: LEFT ANGLE CROSS OF DEMANDS (52/58 | 21/48)
- SIGN (THE SIGN THAT SHOWS YOU THAT YOU’RE LIVING YOUR DESIGN):SATISFACTION
- NOT SELF THEME (THE TELL-TALE FEELING THAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU’RE NOT LIVING YOUR DESIGN):FRUSTRATION
- DIGESTION: SOUNDS & MUSIC (HIGH SOUND)
- YOUR STRONGEST SENSE: OUTER VISION
- ENVIRONMENT: SHORES – MELTING POTS: PLACES WHERE MULTIPLE DIFFERENT ELEMENTS OR CULTURES COME TOGETHER
Find out your Human Design here: https://www.myhumandesign.com
When I’m truly in my element, I make powerful moves that allows me to ascend to higher places. As of now, I only make decisions based on intuition. I’m able to hear my inner and outter voice to know what will bring more harmony into my life. If it doesn’t feel right, I won’t commit to anything that makes me uneasy. I speak my mind with confidence which allows me to manifest connections that are needed to create my ideal community. I no longer feel creatively congested because my creative flow has opened me up to write, to paint, to decorate my home, ect. All of this came from me being in a new environment that has lots of sun and tranquility. My worries aren’t solely tied to just paying bills, but enjoying the simple things in life like meditation and exercising and my body thrives when my spirit feels at ease. My emotions has brought me to a brighter place where I’m able to make decisions that are near and dear to my heart. I’ve always wanted to embrace this side of myself but I was dealt different cards in the past, now that God has given me the opportunity to heal from the past,I’ve gained a new perspective on my overall existence.
Apart of the rebirth is learning how to identify self with your truth and releasing the lies you tell yourself. You’ll begin to elevate to a new level of consciousness but you’ll always remember the person you were prior because it’s apart of your evolution. I once told myself that I didn’t have family, I wasn’t where I needed to be at my age, people don’t want me to win, I’m not a wife, and the biggest lie is that I didn’t want children. All of these things may have some truth but the reality is, my time will come for all things that I desire. I stopped convincing myself that these lies are apart of my reality and began to seek the root of the lies itself. The issue all rooted around fear and It was unfortunate that I was so fearful of my own power. I have a small community of people who love and support me, I am exactly where I need to be at this present time, I didn’t want to win I wanted to be a victim and my wins are not based on anyone but me, I am in union with self and my amazing partner, I aspire to be a mother of many in the near future once I plant the right seeds to create my desired tribe. The defense used to create the lies in our mind is projection from the enemy, while our offense allows us to grow towards our inner God/Goddess.
” Our biography becomes our biology”
•Figure out your mission so you’re able to bring value to your life purpose.
•Listen to your penetrating insights about your inner happiness
•Meditate to find your inner balance and protect yourself from mental turbulence
•Figure out where you’re heading and who’s going with you on your journey ( In that order – Mama Dee)
•Disconnect from 60% of your distractions to make room for self. ( Some distractions can be productive so that you don’t feel like a robot, it’s okay to have some fun)
•Everyone can wait if you need a moment to yourself , the universe will grant you extra time for self
• Allow your mind to relax in the power of NOW.